Busy Times, New Beginnings

It has been a very long time since I have been able to sit and write more than a sentence of two.  Buys times indeed!

It was summer vacation time for my children, and well we did just that.  My summer was spent doing lots of different things with my children as well as eating lots of different things too.  I enjoyed a complete break from diet and training.  As I have spoken about before, I really had lost interest in my training.  I really was having a hard time getting motivated to do any sort of workout.  Actually was sort of depressing, because the more I tried, the more I failed and the more I failed the less I wanted to try.  The less I wanted to try, the more I felt awful about myself too.
Gut instincts are what we call that little voice within.  My gut kept telling me that there was something not quite right about all of this.  My gut kept screaming at me that I was burnt out.......there isn't anything 'wrong' with me, but just that I really needed to be doing things differently.  I kept looking to my training......and each and everytime I would approach my gym and look over the day's workout I filled with dread.  My inner voice was screaming "you've got to be kidding me, right?!"  Every fibre and cell of my being did not want to complete anymore of these workouts, and blast it all I knew it too!  Something had to change.  I had to change something.  I broke from my diet just as a way to reset my metabolism.  I obviously broke from training, just because I really didn't want to do it anymore.   By the beginning of August I had already gained about 8lbs and was feeling it too.  I have a smaller frame so 8lbs shows itself very well on me, not to mention my having turned 45 in July I felt old and f*t.
I knew I didn't wish to follow the path I was on anymore, I knew the path I had been on no longer fit my needs.  I wondered if it was even hurting me as opposed to helping me.  I still wonder about that one and I am guessing that time will only tell with that one.

New Beginnings,

I decided to let my trainer go.  I needed fresh insights, a new direction and fresh eyes perhaps.  I wanted to explore a new trainer whom I had been curious about over the years, but my loyalties kept me from going.  I finally decided to accept that what I had been given before as a custom plan was very cheap in cost for me, but if I wasn't happy then really it isn't that cheap afterall.  I decided to get honest with myself, pay a price that everyone else pays, and hopefully get a service reflective of that price.  I did!   So far, I don't feel dread about my training, in fact it is the opposite, I dread if I am not able to do it on time!  My diet is well balanced and my program reflects my BMR, ABMR and what caloric goal we are aiming for to reduce by 500cals.  My program entails of approx 22pages!!  Complete with my dialy menus, macro needs for the day in case I have to be outside of the menu.  My meals are set at specific times as well as my training and supplements too.  Very impressed with the amount of detail.......I don't have to wonder why this or that, and if I do I just ask and am replied to with the greatest amount of detail......I really feel that I am learning alot more.

After week one, I have lost my predicted 1lb......everything is on course, so far!